It has been 12 weeks today that J has joined our family. Twelve weeks ago, I was sending Q off to school and waiting for my mom to get here and drive to the hospital to forever change our lives.
Its been a big change. Biggest change-no nap time. I haven't been able to get a nap since leaving the hospital with J. I have seriously fallen off the face of the earth too, I don't have time to myself at all anymore, and don't get to do all the things I used to during the kids nap time, like nap, or talk to friends or anything. I'm still waiting for J to fall into a sleep routine during the day. He often sleeps thru the night, but figuring out daytime naps is a challenge. Maybe I'll get 20-30minutes from him, but I cannot predict it. If my one diligent friend didn't call me every so often to see if I'm among the living, I'd have no contact with the outside world. She is tolerant of me yelling at my kids mid conversation, and provides me with important Facebook status of everyone at church. I'm so thankful she hasn't give up on me, so thanks Janet, if you still read.
I try to get to Bible study and MOPS, but often wonder why. I spend my whole time there trying to keep the J kritter quiet and am often stressed about it.
Another big change for me is getting out of the house. Before J was born, I would almost panic if I didn't have someplace to go everyday. I don't like being couped up, and would go out almost everyday. But now, I almost dread leaving the house. It mainly has to do with the car and getting everyone in it. It makes me sweaty and angry every time. I'm trying not to be a spoiled brat here, but I wish I could video my get in the car routine. It would not be half as bad if it weren't for the snowy tundra around here and winter coats. (dude, I'm really ready for spring as we are expecting another snow fall tonight!). It wouldn't be bad either if B didn't think it was funny to kick me in the face as I buckle him into the back seat, or if he didn't think it was funny to run down the street if I don't carry him to the car.
Another big change for me too, is I actually leave the house to take Q to school without being showered or have makeup on. Yikes. That is huge for me. I'm saying this is only a temporary thing. I really don't like leaving the house feeling so raw and naked (and I'm aware how prideful and vain I seem).
There are many more changes that have come along with J. I just don't have time to write about them cause J is fussing and B needs some attention.
2 comments:
Oh Katie. I hear you. I have been there so many MANY times!!! The mental picture of you getting the boys into the car made me laugh, because there is not much that I hate more than that! I often don't go anywhere with all three unless I have to, or whatever it is that I'm going to is really REALLY worth it! It gets easier. It really does. And then it gets harder. And then it gets easier. The routine of naps will come. And if it doesn't - which it didn't for Jesse for many months - he had play time in his crib so that I could have sanity. It was most often scream time....but you do what you have to do. I love you my friend. With you lived closer....
AND although you posted this last week, you can still say that we are expecting yet ANOTHER snow storm tomorrow night. Crazy!
Glad we got to hang out today, and we definitely need to do it more. I'm glad Janet's been so faithful to check on you. I suck, and should do it more.
Oh, and I'm rooting for you to get the mini-van, whether it makes you spoiled or not. Getting kids in & out of car seats is a pita and you have my sympathy, lol.
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