Monday, August 24, 2009

A Case of the Mondays

My Mondays aren't normally bad. But today is turning out to be one of those bad Monday, Mondays.
Last night, I decided on a whim to take the boys to Scott's last hockey game of the season. It was at 7:10pm which is 30min. before the bedtime proceedings begin around here. But, I went, partially to support my darling husband, and partially to make the oldest boy stop crying that daddy was leaving him home with me. Well we went , and it was fun, but we didn't get home till after 9pm, and the boys weren't in bed till 9:30. I thought as I put the youngest in bed that "maybe we'll get to sleep in tomorrow since they are up late tonight." No such luck.

B woke up at 7:30am this am. Cranky and smelly. I changed his diaper and proceeded to bring him down stairs to eat. Well, I guess he was overtired and just cranky but he had a fit. Just miserable crying, back arching, throwing things at me, all this B.C. Before coffee. I ended up feeding him a handful of Nilla wafers, and throwing on the T.V., cause he wouldn't agree to anything else. Thoughts of my B.K. (before kids) ways of thinking came to me this morning as the second kid came downstairs and demanded cookies for breakfast too. I remember so self-righteously thinking that I did NOT understand parents who let their kids eat garbage and junk food, and chicken nuggets. I get it now. Not only to I get it, I do it, a lot. Sometimes I just don't care, and sometimes I don't want a fight and am guilt-filled as I think of the nitrates, preservatives and sugar that I'm pumping my children full of.

I made a decision that I was not going to push to get any of my to-do things done today cause I knew it would be fighting the two of them to get them done. Q was cranky and oppositional from the start today too. Which brings me to another B.K. thought going down in flames. I just didn't understand why parents would let their children dictate what they did. After all, they were the grown ups, don't you just tell a kid "lets do this" and go? HA. Not so much. I often roll over, realizing my expectations are just going to push us all over the edge today, and its not worth it. I'll go grocery shopping tomorrow and we'll eat cereal for dinner again tonight. I don't do it all the time, but enough to be sorta shocked at how I turned out as a parent.

Anywhoo, parenting aside, I'm personally having a Monday. I'm cranky and moody and agitated. Scott and I recently decided that he would go on a 5 day mission trip to Slovakia. It was a last minute thing, and I'm glad he's doing it. We both felt that it was an obedient response to God's call, but of course now I'm freaking out about it. Scott sent me a couple of letters for support that he supposed to send out, when he's leaving NEXT week. It just made me think that this is all not planned and organized very well, and I'm feeling almost spiteful about that. I don't know what I expect. He wasn't originally planning to go, but several people backed out of the trip and they needed someone with construction management and estimating/planning background to go. All of this comes at an extremely uncertain time for Scott and his job security. Rumors fly daily about when the next lay off will be. Its not the best time to be scheduling time off, but I know the Lord's plans are perfect, and I need to rest in that.

Praying that my Monday turns out better this afternoon. Hopefully naps will rejuvenate all of us.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I didn't die last time.

Well my darling Q is so intelligent, figures things out on his own everyday.
Yesterday and probably everyday, I always tell him NOT to unplug and plug things into the outlet. Like say, the night light and lamp. I tell him he could get VERY hurt or even die. (Yes, I have stellar parenting skills). Well, last night Scott was getting him in bed and Q wanted to switch outlets where the night light is. Scott told him that he would do it, but Q insisted.
"No, I can do it Dad, I didn't die last time."

Friday, August 7, 2009

A Post About Nothing

So, its been a while. We've been busy. My family was in town for weeks, and it was fun.
We went to the park, the Please Touch Museum twice, countless playgrounds and to our swim club twice.
Its been a mild summer, and I have determined that taking two boys to the swim club myself, is not all that fun/enjoyable/worth it. So we haven't been utilizing our free membership much at all.

Let me explain. Q continues to be a cautious boy. He's too afraid of the water, and although he wants to be in the big pool, he MUST hold onto me for dear life. B, is NOT a cautious boy and although he's 2.8 years younger than Q, he's BRAVE more like fearless, and I hold onto HIM for dear life when we're in the water. This baby boy, 16 months old now, loves to plunge his face in the water, and comes up choking, but laughing at the same time. Not good. I think I prefer the problem Q has, fear of the water is a good thing, I think. Taking the two to the pool myself is exhausting and nearly impossible to hold two boys myself in the water, without accidentally dunking one or scratching the other.

We're currently in the birthday month. Starting w/ Scott's on the 29th of July, we have 6 family birthdays and 4 friend birthdays to celebrate ending August 31st with Q's fourth birthday. Its crazy and expensive. My side of the family will start adopting a "birthday buddies" approach to birthdays. It was getting out of hand, with 8 siblings to buy for (4 sibs, 4 in-laws), and 11 cousins, plus grandparents and don't forget the hubs side of the family, the gift giving gets overwhelming. So we're doing birthday buddies from now on (think of it as birthday 'polyannas').

Someone recently got my phone number from someone on facebook and called me. I don't facebook, but that's another story. This person was a friend of mine in high school. She was in a couple of shows with me and a fun person. So when she called me out of the blue, I didn't know what to do. I waited almost 2 weeks to call her back, when I did, it was a funny conversation. She just wanted to reconnect. Which to me is a strange concept. I guess its kinda nice, buts its not like I will see her, or call her frequently. I don't do well with 'out of sight' friendships. Just ask my 4 bridesmaids that weren't my sisters. I don't even do well with my sister when she moves out of the country to a 12 hour time difference. And she's my sister. And yes, I feel bad about that. Anyway, I haven't talked to my 3 non-sister bridesmaids for probably 8 years, and I've only been married for 9. One of them calls me twice a year, bless her soul. Anyway, I guess since I have no desire to reconnect, I wonder why anyone else would. But it was interesting to hear what my long-lost friend was doing these days. The same thing I am, raising kids, loving life.

This summer has been flying by. Every year in June, I dread the summer thinking I'll be bored, I don't know what to do with my kids for the whole summer, no preschool no bible study to attend, no MOPS, what will a person do? Well, every day I find something to do. And now I find my house is a mess, cause we're never home. I tell you what though, usually by this time of the summer, I'm ready for fall to start and look forward to cool crisp weather. Not so much this year. I would like to keep it here for a while.

I think I would like to conclude my post about nothing right about now. I have to pack up for a day at the beach, hoping for good weather and healthy kids tomorrow, so we can actually go.